Life tragedy

I've been thinking this since last month . I was a terrified to turn into a 20 years old girl...

There's no way to turn the time anti-clockwise. As time passes by ,day after day ,month after month and years after year ,we will turn into an old nanny one day , carrying white hair, wrinkles,flabby arms that you can imaging it's flapping when u wave goodbye and perhaps some cellulite ??

Well when I was a kid I was thinking to grow up fast so that I can do
whatever I want without someone's permissions I was afraid to grow up ,because there's so much things to worry about..what I'm suppose to do ,it's right or wrong?,what will happen if I done something really wrong?can I find a good job..etc.See ,life's so complicated..

Luckily i've got a great support , I don't need to worry to much about money.. .. Anyway,may my life is full of meaningful things and I will be proud of it.