To be a human sucks

Suddenly i realise that what the hell of me for being naive and "gud girl". Deep inside me would like to try ciggy ,mixing with naughty and wild kids ..doin all those things that ppl kept saying not gud and dangerous ..well the only thing that i will never want to try in my life time is drugs . Thanx god my mind is still clear . Well why being a gud kids anyway ?? All about human life 's is live . We earn money to live , taking care of health to live, loving people to live becuse we can't live alone . Shit the hell of living. everybody are studying hard , working hard and bullshitting hard to live . It's all about living . Day after day ..working like hell and studyin like hell ...everybody's doing logistic things . everybody's is earning to build themselve a better condition . But the only thing at last is leaving . We have to go through this it's just becuse we are human being !!

Where's my fairy????

I don't want angel ..there just too clean and good???